God Loves the Widows

.Thank you to those dear ones who have been "checking in on me." I'm doing well, knowing that Yeshua is my heavenly husband. There are so many scriptures in the Bible that speak about how much God loves and provides for the widows and the orphans! I started noticing small things that God was doing to bless and keep me right from the time John passed away and I am even making a list of them! I will enjoy sharing a few of these God-moments with  you.

Something that I knew would bring me joy and also help me move forward was the makeover of our master bedroom.  I decided to sell John's very large, solid wood and very masculine dresser. I posted it on Facebook Marketplace and a couple soon came in the evening to purchase it. I suggested they might want to pull the drawers out and carry them first so it would be lighter. Upon pulling out the third drawer the young man was having trouble as it seemed to be stuck. He reached down and looked underneath the drawer and there was a wad of cash that came to $350! Ah, my dear husband John, whose father went through the depression! He believed in stashing things away for a rainy day; and I found myself so glad and grateful as I had spotted a beautiful, very feminine antique dresser I wanted for myself. Now I could afford it! The only thing wrong was that it was a dark grey color and I wanted white furniture. I messaged the woman about it and told her I loved it but needed it to be white. "I'll paint it for you!" she exclaimed. 

Really? Who does this? She didn't ask for more money and she seemed very delighted to make it the way I wanted it. A few days later she messaged that the dresser was ready and she and her husband would deliver it. Again, my jaw dropped. Who does THAT?  Yet, here they were a few hours later, carrying this very heavy dresser right into my bedroom and placing it against the wall. I praised God all day for the unusual kindness of these people! 

A couple of days later I started thinking about an order I had placed for some supplies for John, realizing that I could no longer use them. I went to my laptop and opened up the website to locate the status of the order. I saw that it was to ship that very day, so I called the company and spoke with a representative, asking if it  would be permissible for me to send it back for full credit.  He said, "Yes, if it's unopened we can take it back." As I thanked him and hung up, the mail truck pulled up to my box across the street! I grabbed my shoes and jacket, ran across as fast as I could and asked the mailman if he had a package for me. It was in his hands! I told him I needed to return it so he pointed a little scanner at the box, there was a beep sound, and then he said, "There you go. It's returned!"

I don't know about you, but things don't normally go like that for me.  I have long lamented the almost total absence of customer service in our world today and since I don't scan QR codes and digital coupons and jump through all the rest of the high-tech hoops that we seniors can barely navigate, I truly felt the Lord had once again met me right where I was, meeting the small need of returning a package and getting my money back. The credit showed up on my bank statement today. Hallelujah!

So, there are those good days when I'm feeling happy that John is safe in Heaven with the Lord, his mind perfectly restored; and then there are days like yesterday. Yes, I had another little meltdown yesterday.  I know these times when the tears freely flow are actually good, working a cleansing in my soul. So when they stopped, I went into the bathroom and soaked a wash cloth in hot water to wash my face - when suddenly my words from a blog written about a year ago came back to me!
"Stand at the Jordan River waiting for God to tell you when and where to cross. He will.
Weep deeply over the life you hoped would be.
Grieve the losses.
Then wash your face.
Trust God.
Embrace the life you have.

Oh, friends, here I was, grieving the losses, then washing my face. But this time it's completely different. This time, in trusting God, I really CAN embrace the life I have, as well as the wonderful life that's just ahead of me!