An On-Time Word

This is indeed a strange year for me. Often it's as if all I can do is get up with an aching body, sip a cup of coffee and begin to move around, wondering what I should do with my day.  It is a relief this morning to awaken to cool breezes after such a siege of scorching hot weather. I go out on my covered porch and read in my daily devotional. Today the Lord says this: "If I don't want you to do anything other than to trust Me and find peace, you must believe that I know what I'm doing. Let go and trust Me."

Oh my, what an on-time word! I look back over yesterday's devotion, which says, "Keep your speech in agreement with what I have declared to be true in My Word. Speak words of life and light." My heart zeroes in on these two exhortations from the Lord and it causes me to reflect on what my words and thoughts have so often been in the past few months:
"I look so OLD!"
"My body aches because I'm getting old."
"My ankles hurt, what if they don't heal?"
"I'm so tired. By 4:00 pm I have to nap."
"My income won't be enough."
"I'm not sure what God wants me to be doing."

I cannot even remember a time when I've been this tired and low-energy. I feel certain that it's because I've not recovered from the YEARS of stress, exhaustion and caregiving. I do know it has taken a great toll on my body and my mind. BUT I SHOULD NOT BE SPEAKING IN AGREEMENT WITH THAT! 

A dear sister confessed to me last week that the Lord convicted  her of speaking in agreement with old age. Now I have a second witness about that! I must change my thinking and my speech. I wonder if there are any others out there reading this blog who need to hear this. 

What if God doesn't want me to DO in this season?  What if He really DOES just want me to be still and trust Him for my future? What if my brain needs quiet? What if I could look in the mirror and see what YOU see, my Bridegroom?  Tell me, what do YOU see?

I waited. Eventually He answered:
"I see love.
​I see beauty.
I see tenderness.
I see weariness.
I see some fear
I see some pain

Embrace this time, My beloved one. Embrace the quiet. Find gratitude in the blessings. Rest now, little one, rest in My embrace. The month of Elul is coming and I will be out in the field, arms outstretched, joy unbridled! It is the season of purification. You've been through a great fire of purification already. Now, in this season, you  must learn the lesson of aligning your speech with My Word - My proclamations of Love over you - My truth about you! I am the God who sees you. You must learn to take captive every thought to make it obedient to Me. (2 Cor. 10:5) 

His loving Voice continued:
"Speak health to your body!
Speak peace to your heart!
Speak joy to your sadness!
Speak life to your bones!

You will be restored, my bride. Your ankles will heal. Dare to trust Me and believe. If...for now...I don't want you to do anything but trust Me and find peace, YOU MUST BELIEVE THAT I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING!"